italian hot chocolates and grape fanta are love.

I'd forgotten about this. And i'm not even sure if any of you use it still, but what-evs.

Year 12 is exactly the opposite of what i thought it would be. Not in the sense of thw workload being higher and harder, but in the way that I thought all the petty drama that seeped its way from year 10 to 11 would finally be gone.
Guess not.

Everyday something is ALWAYS wrong with someone. And thats not just me being dramatic. By now I have given too many "everything will be okay" speaches. I don't think I even mean it anymore.

Ashley and Reece are together now. And I guess I was the reason for that, which annoy's me because when I first started talking to Ash about it, she always said "I'll never go out with Reece, we're too good friends blah blah" and then as soon as she and David broke up, she changed her mind.
I just hope for his sake, she isnt rebounding.

Continuing the Ashley rant.. I sound like a total bitch, but I think I'm entititled seeing as how she doesn't even look at me anymore let alone talk to me.. I just don't get her. She seems to never be happy. Like never. And I know all this bad stuff has happened to her, but I just can't seem to be the caring/lovely person I might have been a year ago. I just don't care anymore.
I know it sounds bad. But I don't. I guess thats the reason why noone really cares about me anymore either.

I've gone from having so many friends, to having practically none. I mean, I have friends, but nothing like before. Noone I have to see everyday, or talk to everyday. Noone who cares enough to tell me things about their life or vice-versa. Noone to really call "a best friend".
Apart from Matt that is. He's great. But you need more than one person to talk to, or at least one other person that you're not sleeping with.

It's our one year on monday. I guess its pretty big. But unlike Varsha and Jack we don't have elaborate plans or anything.
Wow, I forgot how good it feels to be able to rant. Even if its to no one. I guess I'll find that out when I check to see if you guys still update :)
Elle.

i really havent updated since like. 6 months ago.
and i never check it. or anything.
and i never see you guys.
i miss my fix of bee, rice and maco.
call me yeah?
or ill see you at school, maybe. if situations havent changed.
coz im not sure.
anyway.
hope your christmas was bearable.
=]
ellie

nothing new to post.
everything is boring as.
work is gay.
i'll see you guys at jenna's.

elle x

HiHiHi.
Start of the holidays today.
Not as excited now, as i was during the lead up to them, but waking up at 11 is definatley a positive.

Next term, like all other terms, I have once again promised myself that I will try harder, concentrate and get better grades and so forth. But I am highly doubtful that these promises will follow through. Although I want to try, i just need a motivator.
So, applications are welcome.

I am also fairly sure that I need to study harder in Maths, that or undertake tutoring, seeing as my brain has decided there is no room for such important things as school.

Dreading my report. Dreading the lecture/grounding following the report. Does anyone know if it gets sent home? Or is there a possiblity I might be able to hide it from parental unit A and B. Hmm..

So, its official. I'm moving. Not soon though, at the end of next year, parents have decided to pack up camp and set off for Grafton. A small town nearish the border of Queensland. There will be many-a-trip there this year, house hunting and the likes. Still unsure of my position on the whole thing. I want to leave, but I don't.
Mostly my descision if I stay or leave, because at the time of moving, I will be 'of age'. But it depends on such things as my current employment, whether I have a gap year, whether I can afford to support myself etc.
Hmm. Lots of thinking needs to be done.

I've found that lately I have really lost contact with a lot of my friends, and haven't been able to connect with anyone. My current 'group' should I say, have been getting quite irratated at me, and me at them.
I haven't really talked to anyone about anything either, everythings mostly fine, but just having someone to sort out those minor issues, or reassure you helps. I don't know what I'm talking about.

It's my birthday soon =] . Well, a whole month away, but in comparison to January, my birthday's soon. Only a year and a bit to total responsibilty and some freedom. Hopefully more then I seem to have now. I wish my parents trusted me more, it's not like I've EVER given them any reason not too. I'm possibly THE most innocent person in year 11, with the exception of Tegan.

Plan un-innocent-ify Ellen should resume in full force, I feel so left out.

Isn't learning to drive fun? I'm learning manual, and today, some stupid P-Plater came right up behind me, and starting cheering and clapping, so I started making mistakes, so more clapping and cheering ensued. I was fairly embarrased.

Well, I think that the holidays are a great platform to get to know someone better I haven't already ( no idea who though, just thought it'd be a nice idea to broaden my social capacity, seeing as I'm shy) and catch up with friends I don't spend much time with. Which seems to be most of the LJ circle. So, call/message/comment/pigeon-carrier me with details of your plans and how you would so like me to be involved. Yes?

Much love to all,
Elle . xx

goooodevening .
spent a great deal of time watching clouds today.
and being pensive.
although was distracted by maco trying out japanese massage - without that bar thing you hang onto above your head.
fair amusing.
but probably not for emily.

anyhow folks . gotta jettttt.
elle x.

yep . original lj group member .
and guess what ?
im updating .
without any prompts from anyone .
so . college life . pretty much adapted by now . just doesnt seem to have the same feel as highschool. i dont know. hard to explain i guess. i miss the walking home crew the most though.
best times of my life .
me and maco were reminiscing the other day about everything, and it just made me miss it so much more.
but enough of that... it seems like im in a constant state of annoyance.. or anger maybe , and its directed at a few certain people. even when i dont mean to be, i just snap . but whatever .
if i remember . ill start updating more .
luffles you bee [=

elle . x

hey wow. my journal is still pink. and i havent been on here in ages. i even kinda have forgotten how it works. damn myspace.
i only just have read maco's blogs. i miss her. but shes coming back soon. nothing really new. but im kinda out of this livejournal loop now. its just you guys. i miss walking home with you guys.
and i miss rhiannon. because i havent talked to her in ages.
and.
i dont want to go to college.
but hey. whatever.
hm. maybe ill just delete this thing. i dont know. im just in a grumpy mood. god knows why. but yeah.
massive gay.
well.
bye.
xx

Send a message in a bottle
Get a massage at a spa
Visit all 7 continents
Become a black belt
Write a love letter
and Send it
Buy a home
Donate to charity
Buy a car
Go Skinny Dipping
Dance in the rain
Find a four leaf clover
Write a song
Plant a garden
Go on a road trip
Paint a master piece
Have a baby
Milk a cow
Ride on the back of a motorcycle
Write my will
Kiss someone in the rain
Ride in a helicopter
Go to a drive-in movie theatre on a date
Get my ears pierced again
Stay in a 5 star hotel
Complete a 1000 piece puzzle
Ride a roller coaster
Have a real relationship
Do 10 real push-ups
Bake brownies from scratch
Learn to do a cartwheel
Have grandkids
Order something from a commercial
Date a football player
Get a credit card
Sing in public
Be in a movie
Try caviar
Go on a scavenger hunt
Watch a Centre Court match at Wimbledon
See the the Hollywood Walk of Stars
Skate on the Central Park ice rink at Christmas
Learn to box
Get married and have a huge wedding
Watch the sun come up on the beach
Learn to sail
Slow dance under the stars
Own a pet turtle
Make a funny sign at a sporting event and end up on TV because of it
Host a dinner party and cook all of the food myself
Taking surfing lessons
Never stop volunteering
Spend a summer in Italy
Be on the Price is Right
Jump off a waterfall
Get laid in Hawaii ;)
Learn to trust others completely
Learn to forgive people that don’t apologize
Watch a space shuttle launch
Scrapbook high school and college
Never neglect my family or friends, no matter how far apart we end up
Learn how to ballroom dance
Fly somewhere first class
Buy a ridiculously expensive car just because I can
Save someone's life
Crush grapes with my feet
Be an extra in a movie
Cuddle by a fireplace in the dead of winter
Have a one night stand in Las Vegas
Get a tattoo
Learn how to play poker and then get good at it
See a psychic
Rescue a cat
Have an affair with a rich, sophisticated, married man
Go somewhere without anyone knowing
Do a secretly good deed
write a song
make out in the middle of a thunder storm
Be a good parent
learn about someone's culture that isnt like mine
learn a really good joke
be able to perform a magic trick
do something spontaneous
drive around with the windows down, music up, and not know where im going
spend one day truely and completely happy
get my dream job
get a pen pal. like a real envelope-and-paper one.
Become a teacher
Adopt a baby who needs a family
Jump from really high cliffs into water
Go clubbing and meet a sexy stranger
be remembered. By someone. Anyone.
Be on Oprah or some other cool show
Get an apartment in the city all by myself
Talk to a wrong number caller
Have a moonlit picnic/swim
Adopt a child from overseas
See the pyramids in Egypt
Go to a World Cup game
Learn to ride a horse
Learn to draw properly
Meet Drew Barrymore
Meet Adam Brody
Learn how to read Braille
Be loved by someone else
Get a pet snake
Become a vegetarian for at least 6 months
Crowd surf
Learn sign language
Own a massive truck
Meet Hanson
Write a cheesy romance novel
Make people jealous
Get a pen stuck in the ceiling at school
Fly a plane
Run a marathon
Ride a camel
Kiss under mistletoe
Own a penguin
Sleep under the stars
Buy a scratchie and win
Talk my way out of a speeding ticket
Wear a mini-skirt/bikini and not be self concious
Fall in love.. like really in love
Stay up for a full 24 hours
Watch every episode of Buffy in a row with Benita and Rhiannon
Live in a group house
Be really rich
Complain less
Make new friends
Have a hot boyfriend
And have a relationship longer then 4months
Hav four fish and name them nigel, wallace, martin and donkey
Go to a really awsome concert
Go to Queensland
Go on a roadtrip from Canberra around the whole of Australia
Teach special education children
Appreciate life
Get my way out of an awkward situation
Be friends with a really hot emo guy
And watch him make out with another really hot emo guy
Sneak out
And not be caught
Save money
Buy a computer
Buy a king size bed
Buy every season of Buffy, Angel, Friends, OC, Charmed, Jackass, Viva La Bam
Own more DVDs then Tegan
Sleep with someone.. not sex just sleeping

... to be continued =)

...again with another update... maybe im on a roll? ah we'll see anyhow. havent been to the doctors as such yet. but hopefully will go and see if im about to drop dead. but hopefully not. because i still need a formal dress. and shoes =)
but weekend has been suffciently boring. work. nothing much else. and i already spent all my pay so cant go shopping til tuesday at least. need to get new mascara. next time we are at the mall- someone remind me.
heard that there is another movie marathon on sunday night/monday morning coming up. not sure whats on, havent looked at hoyts website yet. but maybe we could go again? and rhi you can come this time and see brian make out with hayley. :P apart from the cold, last time was awsome. wait and apart from the grounding because i went out without informing parental unit 1 or 2. but overall good =)
am currently banned off computer and grounded but meh.. parentals are distracted at the moment so i was able to come and update! go team me!
and yeah daniel.. i have no idea why/how i have photos/videos of you.. but i do :P and all was collaborated into this video thingy i made. not very good, but bee has it if you want to see it.
and some belco guy wants to sleep with me.. bee n rhiannon your influence has started working already.. i may have said some not so innocent things.. just because i want to defy that image =) so yeah.. but meh see how it goes from there. he know josh mac.. so im thinking hes not the coolest/hottest.. but given my past record.. i dont have standards! so i can only work my way up.... even if slowly.
sucks the only holidays i have in canberra and most of you are going away. so figured that id just work most of the hols and save some money so when you guys get back.. we can go shopping. yes i know, im obsessed. but shopping! and shoes. =)
do you guys plan on having dates for the formal? just wondering.
anyhoo.. best be off before i get caught- and banned for longer.
love.
xx